I just came to realize , I'm in the grey areas .. and worse .... the grayness
is becoming darker and darker beyond my control .
knowin it now is already kinda too late ... as much as I scare lonelyness , I realize I created the perfect atmosphere to breed it .
now I'm kinda drifting away from everyone ... family and frenz and relative alike ~
I dunno how long I can last feeling like a zombie but I think think it will take long to kill mi if I dun act on some preventive acts .. but I am really too un motivated to start ......
2011 is coming .. I hope my new resolution for the year can b reach .. and I'm going to start by cooking Korean healthy lunch for a starts !
I wanna slim down ... since I ain't
appreciated when I'm a Chub ... then I shall slim down and take a little
revenge ... mayb 1 of the reason I become darker is because I self proclaimed I'm lucifer ? anyways , since I have the power of dark . might as well use it to prevent being used by it !!
rawr !!!!
the freaking gray and confused,
rawbean signed off
13122010 937am
at work desk ~